The Stories We Will Tell [musings from my recurring existential crisis about Christian art]

This post is five years and six tries in the making.

It is not my usual trying-to-be-helpful/5-tips-for-xyz/oh-and-here’s-a-book-and-a-playlist-I-recommend-on-the-subject sort of post. I already tried to write this post in those formats and a few styles as well. It didn’t work.

So this is more journal entry/stream-of-consciousness.

I am a Christian, and I am a storyteller. Welcome to my angsty thought life regarding the marriage of my Christianity and my storytelling.

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This is me, for the last five years, about every story I’ve written:

I’m a Christian. Do I write Christian stories? Or am I a Christian who tells stories?

Is this too preachy? Or is this subject matter too dark?

I’m twenty years old. Am I old enough to write this sort of stuff? Will I ever be “old enough” to write this stuff?

My mom will read this. Will she squirm?

People at my church may read this. Will they judge me?

People I’ve never met may read this. Will this help them?

Should I paint the world and humanity as it is, how it should be, or how it could be?

On one hand this story has blatant themes of true greatness, healing, and hope. But it is steeped in kidnapping, stonings, family dysfunction, betrayal, murder, torture, idolatry, and self-obsession. (False Gods)

Will the Christian community condemn me for this? Or are they willing to see into the dark to see why it’s written like this? Can they see that every layer of darkness and depravity has a role to play in contrasting every layer of light and goodness?

Will the non-Christian community scorn me for this attempt at art? Or will this break down barriers and show Jesus to those who have never known him?

Am I writing to entertain, challenge the comfortable, befriend the lonely, raise questions, answer questions, tell it how it is, tell it how it can be, glorify God, or all the above?

On one hand this story showcases one small step to healing. But it is filled with anger, bitterness, grief, and violent death. (Start With Their Names)

Is my Christianity coming through too obnoxiously in this story? Or does this look no different from what the world has to give?

If I include a God-figure, am I capable of writing it well? If I cannot write it well, how do I portray a world without God? Is it wrong for me to portray a world without God? Is that some sort of betrayal of the truest, most real Person in the universe?

Why does it feel like I’m overthinking this? Why does it feel like I’m not thinking about it enough?

These people who I love and respect think that Christian art in general is not done well. And they think I shouldn’t write Christian stories. These other people who I love and respect think that I shouldn’t go too dark, are concerned when my stories aren’t moral or light enough. Which is right? Are either of them wrong? Is it possible for me to execute overtly Christian art well?

On one hand this is a story of new life, light, love, grace, and family. And in its backdrop sit shame, extramarital sex, abandonment, and disownment. But without the latter, can the former shine so brightly? (Unexpected)

Am I reaching too far with this story? Can even a fraction of this vision in my head be achieved on the page?

Do I have what it takes to tackle all of this? Do I have what it takes to bridge this gap between excellent art and the Christian community? Does it matter at all if I have “what it takes” or not as long as I pursue God’s glory through excellent storytelling?

Should there even be such a thing as specifically Christian art? Should I write stories for other Christians, or should I write stories for non-Christians? Is it possible to do both?

At what point should I just quit caring what people think and just work to tell a good story?

What even defines a good story? Can there be an excellent story that isn’t “good”? Or does excellence denote goodness? And what sort of goodness are we talking about here? Moral goodness, craft excellence, or something else?

Will it really kill me to just write fluffy stories since those don’t tend to step on any toes? Oh, wait, those do step on the toes of the people who don’t appreciate the unique value of a fluffy story. What now?

On one hand, this story is all about perseverance, responsibility, and self-sacrifice. And yet it also includes mild gore and torture while touching on genocide. (That Last Breath)

Will people think differently of me if I write dark stories? Is that a bad thing? Does it really matter what they think of me?

If they will condemn me because of truth of human nature (aka: depravity) in my stories, do I really care what they think?

If they will insult me because of the flaming arrows pointing to Jesus in my stories, do I really care what they think?

Speaking of Jesus, what does he think about all this? What does he call me to do in this?

Can I live with people misunderstanding my intentions, insulting me, or condemning me as far as my storytelling goes if I know I’m writing what I’ve been called to write? Basically, do I really believe Jesus’ opinion is enough to render all the others moot?

There is no good way to finish this post, and so I’m going to drop the bookend here.

These questions (and more) come back again and again with every story that I write. The only thing I really know for sure is that I’m called to pursue excellence in storytelling for the glory of Jesus.

I must learn to tune out the conflicting, raging opinions around me and focus in on Jesus and what magnifies him. It’s not always going to be obvious. It’s not always going to be subtle. But it must always be the motivation and end of every story I write.


Thank you to Caleb Valentine, Janie Valentine, Katie Grace, Nadine Brandes, Tony Reinke, Stephen E. Burnett, Jackie Hill PerryMary Weber, Tosca LeeLindsay Franklin, Steve Laube, and Aimee Meester; though you may not have known it, your friendship, books, teaching, example, discussions, podcasts, and/or blog posts have been helping me think through this issue for quite some time.

Thank you to Daddy for not being freaked out by the wide variety of stories along the Christian storytelling spectrum that I’ve thrown at you.

And thank you, Jesus, for who you are. You are not tame. You are not dark. You are not clean. You are completely holy. You are endlessly creative. You are always good.

Hopefully this question-filled post will help you figure out the kind of stories you will tell.

With love,

Rosalie

P.S. – sorry for being AWOL last week, my friends. My brain hiccuped, and then it was too late to put together a good post for last week. So here we are.

P.P.S. – what about you? What’s the deal with the stories you tell?

7 thoughts on “The Stories We Will Tell [musings from my recurring existential crisis about Christian art]

  1. I loved this post. I can relate so much with this train of thought. To answer some of your questions, yes you are overthinking it a little, but that’s okay. We’re Christians and we’re artists and we care, so it’s bound to happen. :)
    A quote that came to mind as I was reading this was, “Do whatever you want, just don’t sin.” (St. John Bosco)
    It’s okay if you write stories for just entertainment, or stories that shine a light on the darker elements of humanity. And of course to write stories that attempt to point other toward God is an attempt to imitate Christ himself. (He told lots of stories, and he wasn’t always understood either.)
    Honestly, though, I think the best question is “What does Jesus think of this?” And of course, He’s the only one who can answer that for you.
    Thanks for sharing you heart with us. ^_^ Keep writing, sister!

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  2. Wow. Amazing, Rosalie. I’m a little too tired to form coherent thoughts right now, but I really appreciate that you wrote this post. God doesn’t call us to write to please others; He calls us to write for Him. Loved this.

    Also, I need to get my hands on some of your writing sometime. ;)

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  3. “The only thing I really know for sure is that I’m called to pursue excellence in storytelling for the glory of Jesus”
    I love this line! I love this post, in general. I’m constantly struggling with this. And it happens when I take my eyes off Jesus and look at other people for approval of my purpose.

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  4. You sum up the struggle beautifully. It’s a challenge, knowing that the stories we tell aren’t just reflections on us, but might be taken as reflections on our Savior as well. Add to that the fact that I WORK in a church organization, and you’ve summed up many of my struggles beautifully. (The current question on my docket: My characters WOULD curse sometimes. How far does it invade my manuscript? UGH!!!)
    Thanks for sharing- I’m looking forward to checking out more of your blog!

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  5. Okay, so I don’t follow your blog and I actually rarely read it. But…wow, girl. You are so real and honestly, I absolutely love that. You’ve spoken these words and I feel like every single sentence I could have said myself at some point, maybe even now, tbh.

    I know you may receive some backlash on this post, but please know that it touched me: a single, broken, often screwed up little human.

    And I hope that’s enough for you feel encouraged and find a little bit of hope to keep doing what God is leading you to do and write.

    Thank you, dear one. You’ve truly expressed something that I’ve often struggled to say or talk about. So thank you.

    I really appreciate you taking the time to say what I know many Christian writers have felt and thought before.

    That takes a brave heart.

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  6. I think all of these questions have raged in every Christian writer at one point. Concerning darker themes one thing I have to tell myself is that the characters aren’t me. I don’t agree with them but the things they do still happen. That doesn’t mean that they should be condoned but portraying them is not wrong. The Bible portrays a lot of dark subject matter including incest, rape, and human sacrifice.

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