How Strange [the last poem in the church cataclysm trilogy]

Intro where I talk about how I cannot believe/fathom that the entire first quarter of 2026 is already over.

Now, onto the next stuff.

This will be the last poem I share on the subject of October 2024. Consider it the last in the tiny poetic trilogy that started with All Good Things and then Make Something New. If you know, you know. If you don’t know, I will simply say that the church I moved 1200 miles to help plant (i.e. – help start) fell apart in October of 2024. You could say I was not having the time of my life for a minute there (hence All Good Things and a host of other poems and prayers and gnashings of my teeth).

By the grace of Jesus, I am still walking with God and am now a part of another church (perhaps I’ll write about why I’d choose to join myself to another church when 2 of the 3 I’ve been part of have imploded in ways that have catastrophically altered my brain chemistry).

But for now: a final poem.

How strange it is
To live in today
In a moment I could not have
Imagined
Fathomed
Hoped for
Believed possible
A year ago.

All those days of grief
I knew in my heart
Better days would come
But to live in those better days
To see them come to pass…
How strange.

Father, thank you
For those days
And for these days.

How strange
To see a bud on the branches
I might have sworn were dead.

How strange
To feel the sun
Warm my face
Warm my soul.

How strange
To experience familiarity
To be called by name
To be a little known
After 400 days of sojourning.

How strange
To have the painstaking
Foundation-laying
Finished
And be able to
Live in a home
Once again.

How strange
To have roots
Finally
Pushing into new soil
After the cataclysm
Of the transplant.

How strange
To take off at a run
Full tilt
When I wondered
If I’d ever walk again.

How strange
To dream of the future
Once again.

How strange
To have memories of the pain
But to
At last
Not be in pain.

How strange
To be in the days
Where the
Quiet
Secret
Precious
Patient
Work of the Spirit
And his salve that is truth
And his splint that is time
Bring forth
At last
A bud.

How strange
To be
Well again.


And just for fun (because this is a blog, not a serious publication, ladies and gents), here are some things that are currently keeping my heart from growing cold as I continue on the pilgrim way home to Jesus. Of course, they’re mostly songs. Smh, classic.

Shai Linne’s Attributes of God album takes my feelings out of myself and roots me (whole being: thoughts, feelings, zeal, etc.) in who God is and what he’s like. This album is a triumph, particularly Self-Sufficiency (which begins with a sermon excerpt), Lord of Patience, and Triune Praise Remix. (Yeah, your girl finally got got by Christian rap).

Another rap rec: Shai Linne’s track Immutable from his Still Jesus album. It’s straight fire.

Delighting in the Trinity by Michael Reeves was a Godsend last year when I read it. Surprisingly funny and deeply encouraging, this is a must read for Christians because it is all about why the God of the Bible and the Christian faith is Trinitarian (3 in 1) and some of the implications of that. I didn’t think a book on the Trinity had any business being this life-giving (my surprise is proof that I still know nothing), but it was a banger from start to finish.

The Zion Acoustic Album. I’ve learned for myself that Scandal of Grace is never not the vibe.

Shane and Shane’s Praise to the Lord (Joyful, Joyful) medley is a can’t stop won’t stop recalibrator of my soul; it gets my eyes and my heart on the Father in all his majesty, goodness, and delight.

John Mark McMillan’s Nothing Stands Between Us is a joyful anthem about how there’s no enmity between Christians and God, just love, and I could dance to it into eternity.

Weekly coffee with Judy (sorry if you don’t know Judy–your loss). Since you likely don’t have Judy (a woman at my new church who has been discipling me), pray for one and try to find one! For six months, we’ve sat in her recliners every Monday, drinking coffee and going through a book and talking and praying and she shares wisdom and insights and my skittish spirit settles. We met through my new church (where I’ve been the last year and managed [by God’s grace] not to run away from). Maybe pray and see if there is an older, wiser Christian that you can ask to help you not be a lost, cynical duckling to disciple you.

And, of course, the Bible (the whole thing–I just can’t get over it).

Further up and further in,
Rosalie

p.s. – if you haven’t gone to see Project Hail Mary, please go see it. I saw it 3 times in 7 days with no regrets. It’s why movies are made.

p.p.s. – leave your book recommendations in the comments, please. I’m trying to read 50 books this year, and of course, my towering TBR is always in need of additions (or should I say… editions 0.0).

Bind Them on Your Fingers: 7 Reasons to Memorize Scripture

Weโ€™re going to take a brief trip back in time to the mind of younger me. Iโ€™m going to forewarn you: little me was by no means the darling that I would prefer everyone believe I was. I donโ€™t know if there has ever been a seven year old with such a superiority complex and attention addiction. Here in my younger mind, weโ€™re going to breeze through my top four reasons to memorize Scripture. You ready? Letโ€™s go.

Kid Rosalie Reason #1. To get candy from my Sunday school teachers.

Kid Rosalie Reason #2. To get stickers so that when I got enough stickers I could pick a prize from the prize box.

Kid Rosalie Reason #3. To memorize the verses faster than my peers and therefore be better than them (ah, yes, Iโ€™m so proud).

Kid Rosalie Reason #4. To finish another AWANA book (theoretically before everyone else did) and get another award.

Wow. I frighten myself sometimes.

I memorized a lot of Bible verses as a child. Hereโ€™s the problem. Eventually, I graduated out of the Sunday school classes that gave candy, stickers, and other assorted prizes for memorizing the verse of the week. And shortly after that, my family moved, and our new town didnโ€™t have an AWANA program for kids my age. So there went all my reasons to memorize Scripture.

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For years I didnโ€™t think that there were any good reasons beyond those four to memorize Scripture. Well, thank God for the Holy Spirit because recently, I have learned seven good reasons to memorize Scripture. Basically, these are just seven of the sweetest benefits that come with Scripture memorization (Iโ€™ve decided not to elaborate too much on them because theyโ€™re pretty self-explanatory).

Reason #1: So that you can meditate on it anywhere and anytime.

Meditation is essential to understanding Scripture. Itโ€™s not enough to just meditate on it for an hour in the morning; itโ€™s so important to revisit Scripture throughout the day. We donโ€™t carry our Bibles everywhere; thatโ€™s just the way most of us are. And we canโ€™t always whip out our phones and look up some verses. When you have Scripture memorized, you can meditate on it on the drive to work, while you work out, while you do dishes, anytime. Psalm 119:97 says this: โ€œOh how I love Your law! It is my meditation all the day.โ€

Reason #2: To have increased intimacy with the Holy Spirit.

When youโ€™re spending time memorizing Scripture, this can naturally draw you closer to the Holy Spirit. When you recite and meditate on Scripture, you proclaim Him and draw near to Him. I love Psalm 107:9 because it says, โ€œFor He satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul He fills with good things.โ€ The Holy Spirit is the satisfaction of the soul. The Holy Spirit is the best, good thing for a hungry soul, and when you keep coming back to Scripture, you keep coming back to Him.

Reason #3: To have an enriched prayer life.

It is such a joy to incorporate verses into prayers. When you have Scripture memorized, it starts to seep into your prayers. It starts to change the way you talk to God in a beautiful way. You begin to pray verses that youโ€™ve memorized, and since youโ€™ve been spending so much time with the Word, youโ€™ll be more likely to pray Godโ€™s will because your mind is more in tune to His Word.

Reason #4: To have the Sword of the Spirit always on hand to fight the Enemy and temptation.

Christ quoted Scripture to Satan when He was tempted in the wilderness, and each time, it conquered the Enemy. When temptations come, verses start to rise in your mind. Memorizing Scripture keeps the Sword of the Spirit within easy reach at all times. Ephesians 6:10-20 talks about the armor of God, and I encourage you to read that passage, but I just want to share verses 10-13. โ€œFinally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore, take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm.โ€

Reason #5: To be able to offer stronger encouragement to fellow Christians.

Weโ€™re called to encourage fellow Christians, and one of the purest, strongest forms of encouragement is Scripture. Hebrews 4:12 tells us, โ€œFor the Word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.โ€ Thereโ€™s no power like that, friends. When youโ€™re memorizing Scripture, youโ€™ll find verses coming to mind more easily to exhort your fellow Christians.

Reason #6: To have a fuller, deeper joy.

This is one of the most beautiful, I think. When youโ€™re focusing on memorizing for the purpose of knowing God, you automatically find your joy and fulfillment in Him. Verses will begin to come to mind when youโ€™re at your lowest, when you feel alone or unworthy, and the Truth that is in Scripture will bring such joy to your heart. I think Psalm 107:9 fits this so well (yes, I might be a bit obsessed with that verse). Iโ€™ll share it again just because itโ€™s so good. โ€œFor He satisfies the longing soul, and the hungry soul He fills with good things.โ€ This satisfaction and these good things found in Christ and His Spirit are at the forefront when youโ€™re memorizing and meditating on Scripture.

Reason #7: A hunger for more.

Once you start committing Scripture to memory, itโ€™s hard to get enough of it. Youโ€™ll want more. You will have the attitude of Psalm 119:20 which says, โ€œMy soul is consumed with longing for Your rules at all times.โ€

And there you have it. Seven reasons to memorize Scripture.

What about you? Do you memorize Scripture? Why or why not? What are some reasons you see to spend time committing the Bible to memory? Do you think thereโ€™s value in memorizing verses?

P.S. – Next week’s post will be a follow-up with some tips that help with memorization.